On Hiatus

I've got an explosion of personal problems right now, all of them bad, and none of them issues I feel I can really blog or write about. They are too intense, too heart-breaking. I'm having a rough time dealing and trying to get through them as it is, and I don't know how things will come out in the end, or whether or not I will even be in the same position/place I am now. I'm scared, broken, and just want to hide away from it all. I'm withdrawing. It's what happens when life's issues become too much for me.
 I know it's not the "healthy" way to cope, but it's what I do. I have very few people who are on my side right now, or who can relate to what I'm going through and the pain it's causing me. I'm a fucking train wreck, and I'm shutting down. Powering off. Sinking  as far down into myself as I can. And I won't come out until I feel better or unless someone is capable of mending my broken self, including my heart. I will keep myself locked away. And the funny thing is, no one over here cares. Except my mom, who's taken me in these last few days and been very kind to me. With the exception of her and a few more close friends, I feel very much alone.
I won't go into details about how my marriage has become derailed as well, but my O/p D/s relationship with my Husband is also currently on hold, so there won't be anything to write about on that subject. I cannot say more, for fear He will feel I am disrespecting Him, which is not my intention. I have failed Him as His sub and therefore am taking a break from even trying. Enough said.

I hope I will be able to come back and blog again soon...but there are no guarantees right now as to how long this hiatus may last. It will last until I am better, and no longer feeling broken, inside and out...and until my world rights itself and my life no longer feels like a living nightmare.

Obviously I've got some major issues and some things I need to figure out.

Bye' for now....

Rd